Trust.

I should hope that you trust me.

Because I trust you.

Catastrophe.

I can't understand.

I wish I could.

I'm built to help or something, I dunno.

Please don't do anything bad.

Or drastic.

I care about you too much.

I love you too much.

I'm here for you.

Please talk to me.

...please?

Desufnoc.

I don't even know what to do.

I'm so worried.

And anxious.

What a weird word, anxious.

If you break it into its derivatives, it turns into anx and ious.

Everyone knows that -ious is a suffix, so what the hell's an "anx"?

Probably some "Ye Olde English" stuff.

But I have no idea what to do.

This is so confusing.

I want to help, but I can't. And I need to help.

BUT I CAN'T.

Fuck I'm confused.

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I thought this would help.

But this isn't going anywhere.

Great.

Addictive.

Hooray for one word titles, obviously stolen from someone I know.

Anyway, I seem to have an addictive personality.

Once I find something I like, I do it over and over again until I get bored of it.

I swear that wasn't supposed to be sexual.

I mean like, if I find a game that I find REALLY fun, I'll play it until I get EVERYTHING. Like, all the secrets, everything. Then I get bored and find a new game.

But in that week or so that I play the game, I get really into it. I always find something that's awesome about it.

I recently had a bout of addiction with the online computer game ForumWarz, and I have to say it's really fun. I only stopped playing because there was nothing left for me to do. I had already beaten all the forums, bought all the best equipment, etc, etc.

And I always, ALWAYS either stop being into it very suddenly, or find it so enthralling that I can't live without it.

Take Rock Band, for instance.

I'm very open to say that I like that game a lot.

Addicted, even.

People point that out to me all the time, "Wow, you really like that game don't you?"
"Can you please talk about something else?"

Stuff like that. But the thing is, I don't think they understand my personality.

I was also very into the Artix Entertainment brand online games (Adventure Quest, Dragon Fable, AQ Worlds, etc.) Yes, I know those are very nerdy games, but I tried AdventureQuest once and was immediately and completely hooked. I played that game for a solid week after trying it. I got to level 80, which is awesome. And like, I just couldn't stop playing. It was so addicting. I just don't get my personality this way. Sometimes I think it's a really bad thing.

It also applies to how I listen to music. When I like a song, I usually:
1. Download it to my iPod.
2. Play the song.
3. Loop the song over and over.
4. Get bored.

5. Find new song.

6. Go to step 1.

And people just don't understand it. They think I'm crazy for listening to the same song over and over again. But that's just how I am. When I like something, I guess sometimes I take it too far. Like now, I think I might be getting addicted to BlogSpot now.

Oh boy.

Here we go again...

Holy.

I think my first post pushes the limits on the phrase "Wall of Text."

D:

Time to make a blog that absolutely no one will read!

Hey there.

I don't really know what to say...

I've never had a blog before.

I think I had a journal once... but I lost it or something.

I guess... tell all you people about myself?

I play Rock Band... a lot. You have no idea. I'm basically addicted to it.

I play the drums... but only on Rock Band. I really want to be a drummer, but I don't have time for lessons or the money for a kit. It makes me pretty sad.

Oh man. My girlfriend is absolutely amazing. You have no idea. She's smart, beautiful, hilarious, and just absolutely crazy... in a good way. She completes me, you know? I just can't begin to understand how I could find someone like her.

Who am I kidding? No one's going to read this... I guess I just need a place to anonymously post my thoughts. Whatever, at least it's out there.

So this past week has been pretty great. I hung out with my girlfriend, and got my exam marks back and was honestly surprised with the results. They weren't spectacular, but they were better than I thought I was going to do.

So yeah. I forgot my fucking XBox hard drive at my friends house. I need to pick it up. But I keep forgetting. Fuck.

But yeah. This is a failure of a blog. I don't even know why I'm doing this.

I would totally prefer doing a vlog than a blog. I can talk better than I type sometimes.

This week was good. And I hope there's another good one coming up.

There's a dance on Thursday, and I'm going with her.

I'm excited.

:3